Last night I got out my step working guide and prayed for God to use me as an instrument, to guide me, help me be honest and thorough, and to let me learn and grow. I preceded to answer the last 2 questions on my 4th step. I'd been holding back on finishing it because I didn't want to let go. This 4th step has been such a rewarding gift and has given me so much awarness. I wanted it to last forever. My sponsor told me I was crazy and I knew if I didn't keep moving forward I'd stay stuck or regress, which is something I'm not willing to do. So I put the pen to the paper and finally finished it. I got such a sense of accomplishment because I put my all into writing this and I know I did my best. It took me 6 months and 2 notebooks so I better have! So I am saying farewell to my 4th step until I work the steps again! Recovery is an ongoing process.
Way to go KB. I am proud for you, and through your ESH, I am continuing to work on my 4th step with the help of the guide. It can be done.
Thanks for sharing your major milestone on your step work!
Hugs,
Cheryl
Congratulations form me too, Kerry! I understand what you mean ~receiving so many gifts by releasing your truth to the 4th step. By letting it go, Step 5 will welcome you with open arms and assuredly fill you with even more ESH! I'm actually working my steps for the 2nd time now and just about to begin Step 4 using the 12x12. Keep on blooming Sister!
Jhe T.
I really know how good you must feel. I wrote out a long step 4 and when I was done I felt like I had really accomplished something great in my life. I think if we rush through the steps we are not getting the rull benefit of what these steps can truly do for us.
My first sponsor recommended that I take at least a year if not longer. She wanted me to take my time and really understand what each step meant. I've always been glad I did. Step 4 showed me what I had done...and step 10 tells me what I'm doing now. Both have been great tools for me. I wish you continued success on your journey.
CJlovestigger... I'm a work in progress
Living a happy, joyous, and free life by embracing the mind, body, and spirit.
I would like to say how happy I am for you, KB, but I can't since it's all about ME
just kidding. Cool stuff my friend.
JOM
today is the next step in the journey......paw
No Eileen, unfortunately, it is about me. So, here goes. In my day Kaboom was a game that had a clown head (scary, clowns are evil!) that you put a balloon on somewhere and pumped up the ballon until it went "Kaboom!"
That is my story and I am sticking to it!
Love Ya'll,
Years before I became a drunk, I loved cartoons - all sorts. My avatar is of a characted named Marvin the Martian. His voice was something like PeeWee Herman, another fav.
Anyway, one of his lines was "Where's the Kaboom, there is supposed to be an earth-shattering Kaboom" - it only makes sense if you have seen it but back to the main point - it is only important to ME so MH, I'm afraid I'm going to have to have a fight with you. It can't be about you if it is all about ME
This disagreement is going to lead to a resentment. Subsequently, I will have to make an amends or else it will lead to anger. If I get angry, then I will eat a lot. If I eat a lot, then my cholesterol might go crazy. If my cholesterol goes crazy, then I will have to take pills. If I take pills, then my thought process might not work very well. That would likely make me join a small paramilitary group in South America. Since I can't accurately fire a gun, this could all end up in a mistaken shooting of a world politcal figure and potentially change the course of history.
So you see that a simple admission that 1) JOM is the single most important person in the world or 2) the world revolves around JOM would simply make life easier for billions of people. I hope that you can come to see things MY way.
What was this thread about again?
Oh yeah? Put on your gloves. I suppose that if all of that happened and you changed the course of history, THEN it would be about me?
I remember Marvin the Martian. He had a hard time in outer space with Bugs Bunny.
Love Ya,
Do ya think we can sell tickets? Now you have forced me to display an actual picture as my avatar!
Realistically, for those of us who work the steps, do we really EVER 'finish' it?? I may take a break from fearlessly working on my moral inventory, for a time, but I am never finished with it. I see it - working the 4th step, as well as myself - as a work-in-progress.
I THINK I'm glad to hear that we are putting ourselves FIRST (because that is really essential) in a humorous and fun way, but we are mindful that this is a WE program and not a ME program, right?