As of tomorrow, I will be 1 month sober. However, instead of getting easier, it is getting harder. I just want a damn drink and I feel cranky and deprived that I can't have one. I feel like everyone else is having fun and I am a stick in the mud. I am also a vegetarian and, between not drinking and not eating meat I feel like I can't enjoy anything in life. I know that I am just being a whiner and feeling sorry for myself. After all, not drinking and not eating meat are my choices. I think I need to get out of my house and go to a meeting and talk to people in similar circumstances. I am sure I'd benefit from their prespectives. I am just venting here. Thanks for a place to do that.
This is the right place for that!!! I thought I couldn't have any fun ANYWHERE 'cause I didn't drink, but it's not true. You're just in a slump.
There are a number of vegetarians in my family, plus diabetes runs rampant so there are all kinds of diets to follow. I think a meeting would do you good and maybe there's some groups for veggie lovers.
Try a cooking class, maybe you'll run into someone there. Stay with us though, we love to hear from you.
By the way, congrats on that 1 month of sobriety. That's a major hurdle.
today is the next step in the journey......paw
Thank you! Last night was an especially difficult night. i am going to look up where meeting take place in my area and go to an open one. It can't hurt, right? ;)
HEY rs73
big congrats on 30 days..this is the beginning of the period where you will start doing 'life on lifes terms ' without using.projection is a "big" monster in early recovery..when we talk about"just for today" may sound like a cute saying but the validity is you can do it for this day,the hour or minute of this day.making meetings with your peers at this stage is also a real reenforcer..you are not being a whiner you are feeling what we all have felt.even after almost 25 years of recovery i still sometimes think i could use again because i have arrived..WRONG!!!!! try to hook up with different evvironments,new people,or things to occupy your mind and time..keep coming back here and share what you are feeling.remember another "cute" saying we didnt become addicted overnite "so easy does it!! Share as if your life depended on it because addiction will take your life away...glad you made it here.this is the beginning of a new life for you in recovery.hope to see you back peace and strength mikef....
MIKE F
You are right, it won't hurt you to go to a meeting. You will probably be pleasantly surprised. And I like what PAW suggested about taking a cooking class -- there are a lot of recipes out there for vegetarians. If there is a Whole Food Market in your area, you might check that out!
All in all, congrats on your sobriety. 30 days is major. Glad you are still with us. Hope you feel great. C
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Hello!
Congratulations on your month sober! I think a meeting would be a good idea for you! Sometimes we need a friend. Go to a meeting and get some phone numbers!
Keep coming back!
Ann
HI Rs73,
Congrats on your 30 days!!!! WOOOOHOOOO! YOU ARE A MIRACLE!!!! Don't ever forget that each day you stay clean, you are a living breathing miracle. And you have a choice today, you never have to use again!!! Everyone has great suggestions. Try going to 90 meetings and 90 days. Get phone numbers and call those numbers, get some hobbies. Paw had a great suggestion of cooking classes. It would be fun, get you out of your head, and you could meet new people. Mike F. is right, JUST FOR TODAY! I have a few years clean and I know that I have lived the majority of the past few years staying in today. Sometimes you have to live by the minute. It works if you apply it! All the slogans and sayings you always hear I used to think they were funny and didn't make sense. Today, they hold a deep meaning to my life and recvovery and honestly, I wouldn't be here if I didn't have some of those slogans because they have saved my life!!! Another thing you may want to try is writing a gratitude list and consequence list. I still keep mine by my bed and add onto them if I feel like using or having a rough day. If you focus on things that you are grateful for, there will be less pain in your life. If you focus on the consequences of what happens if you use, the less you'll want to use. One thing that keeps me clean today is that I NEVER forget the pain I was in the last week I used. I wanted to die. I had a knife to my wrist and hated everyone and everything. Thank GOD I didn't have the guts to kill myself. I can still remember the pain I felt and I never want to live like that again...just for today. I have a beautiful life today thanks to NA and doing some work on myself. Keep coming back. It gets easier and life gets better each day!
Thanks again! I am totally getting what you are all saying about taking things one day or even one hour at a time. Trying to think of a whole lifetime is overwhelming, but just today is not that bad. I do plan on going to a meeting in the next few days. This week has been unusually busy with work, which is good in a way because it keeps me occupied. But I know things will die down later this week and then I plan on going. I am also headed out to an all vegetarian restaurant for dinner tonight with my husband and I am looking forward to it.
That's great and here's hoping you have a wonderful time!! I'm glad you've stopped focusing on "the whole picture". It's so much easier to work it with baby steps. Keep coming back.
Also, Karebear, i love your idea of a gratitude and consequence list. That seems like something that could be very helpful.