Just some random thoughts for the day.
So it's the end of the semester the actual last day for class other than finals. Most of the professors are cool and know that most of us have been bustin it so they cut a lil slack this week. On the other hand we have my Com1(english) professor. She on the other hand didnt cut us a bit of slack and pulled pop quiz on random stuff she has went over since january. I respect her because she has a passion for what she does, however she is hardcore all across the board. This is the only class I'm kinda stressing too. So I finished my quiz as I'm walking out the random thought of using came to my head maybe from the stress anxiety or whatever I dunno maybe just because I'm a addict plain and simple lol So that was the first thought, 2nd thought was o snap I better go to a meeting, 3rd thought call my sponsor. So I talked to my sponsor for a few that didn't help much, maybe I need a new sponsor. Went to a meeting talked to some fellow addicts, usually that helps but not tonight. I'm just in a funk I think I'm going to put my nose in the basic text as soon as I'm done writing this. That usually helps too we will see I don't know what the deal is. Sunday I'll have the elusive 6 months that evaded me last time. I refuse to let that happen again darn it! Well enough ramblings from me hope you are all doing well!!!
Being defeated is often only a temporary condition. Giving up is what makes it permanent!
Yeah, I get where you're coming from. I still get those urges every now and then. And I've got some time. Just don't get discouraged too much. You've got the right idea and you're strong. You'll make it. When nothing else seems to help and the only thing you have to rely on is the faith in yourself, it's a real struggle sometimes, but when that edge goes away, how proud you can be!!
today is the next step in the journey......paw
Thanks for the wise words and encouragement!
I put my nose in the basic text, read some stories and recovery and relapse. I feel a bit better now. A good nights rest is in order too :)
Don't be too alarmed by it. It crosses my mind from time to time. Especially when I am stress or angry over something. My way of thinking is, "If I could just drink this one night then ..." . But then you don't realize that it will keep going. It's like when you quit smoking and then you think you can start back just for that one night, and then you never stop. It's the way addiction is -- and our minds trick us.
The main thing is to know what is right and what is wrong. And to have a backup for every situation. I have found certain drinks that I like, like Red Bull and tonic water/sprite w/ lime, that seem to be a bit different and sometimes quench my thirst for alcohol.
Let me know if you want to talk. I sent you a PM a couple of days ago. Clint
Living a happy, joyous, and free life by embracing the mind, body, and spirit.
Hi Phil!
Hope you are doing okay and keeping yourself busy! We all have these feelings once in awhile. They do pass. Going to a meeting was a good idea. You can always talk to us as well. Let us know how you are doing!
Peace!
Ann
HEY DJ,mikef here.
remember my friend"more will be revealed"...funks are allowed,you been sending it in for awhile now the ball has slowed down. I know after i have run a marathon i get that same "kinda funk:"training,anxiety of whats comin,keeping focus at top level,then zip its done>now what!!!congrats on 6 months my friend.another of Gods miracles!!good to see you back posting.keep the faith and peace as always.mikef
MIKE F
Thanks yall! I think it was just stress and anxiety mostly. I got out and went over to orlando for a day and preoccupied my mind. And it passed, thankfully! The elusive 6 months didnt evade me this time!!! woohoo! Now off to band practice :)
What a step!! Big congrats from me.... Baby steps and a reachable goal. I'm proud of ya....
Yeah ... way to go. You never have to use again if you do not want to!